Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Maturing or Disconnecting

Today I found myself worrying about tomorrow, concerned about what I would be doing or needed to get done approximately 12 hours from that very moment I was standing there, living and breathing. It's fascinating to me how I can becoming so disconnected to the world when, at the same time, I feel I am become more in tune with the structure of its society.

All I seem to hear these days is how much school costs, jumping from job to job, trying to graduate "on time", preparing for that internship, sticking to the plan!

The fact is... life isn't something you can plan. God didn't throw us on this earth and say, "Ok, now go get your degree. When I get back, you better have that house on the lake, 2.5 kids, and a dog that doesn't eat your slippers."

I refuse to become a slave to societies quotas! I'm beyond tired of people trying to tell me what I need to do and when I need to do it by. Without even realizing it, I've started to become "functional" in the madness we call a society. It terrifies me to think of all the imagination, inspiration, and individualism we give up as we grow up, not to mention the time we waste planning.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009


I wonder how easily fame corrupts the most honest of men. It
fascinates me like Pandoras Box. I feel I will never completely
understand until I see it first hand, until I've become just as naive
as all the others.

But is it possible to live balanced? Can one learn to ignore flashing
cameras and stinging tabloids day in and day out? Is it worth ones
privacy to be familiarized by so many? I am curious yet wary as the
consequences may be irreparable.